Graduation!

One month until he graduates and we can see him!!! Then 6 more weeks until I'm no longer a "single mother"!!! We are doing great alone but would be doing better with him here! We miss him so much!!! I'm surprised by our strength! Sophie talks about him so often but in positive ways!

Hours away!

Today is the day! We have to get 4 months worth of hugs, kisses and family time in before he heads out! I'm terrified yet excited! I can do it. One day at a time. If I try to think of the whole time at once I freak out. I can do Monday. After Monday I'll attempt Tuesday and maybe Wednesday. I won't think further than that. One day, one moment, one blink of the eye. I know he's only going to boot camp but he is our world, our family pillar. Never realized how much I leaned on that pillar until its taken away. Will I fall to the ground, crumbled, or will I stand up straight and hold tight to my family? I choose to stand strong until he's back to help me. Wish me luck and pray for strength. He's gonna do amazing in the Army. The least I can do is do amazing at home. Fair is fair:-)

Merry Christmas

It's Christmas time and I should feel as warm and happy as I usually feel during this time. However, I'm not because I know as soon as the holiday season is over it will be mere days before he leaves. Charlie keeps telling me how different Eric will be when he gets back, followed by a chuckle. That chuckle makes me want to shove my fist down his throat and twist his stomach in knots because that is what he's doing to me! Does he not get that I'm nervous? What if he changes and I'm not what he wants/needs anymore?! How would he like it if I said with a chuckle that Amanda was leaving for 16 weeks and would change completely hahaha?! Huh!? Makes you feel good, right? Oh wait, no! Shocking!!! Thank you dear brother in law for making me feel comforted! That's all Merry Christmas, Happy New Year! Hooah!!

Shhh it's a secret

I'm not gonna lie, I'm not 100% sure about this whole Army adventure. However Eric is so excited about it that its hard not to be excited. He's working his hardest to be as strong as he can be before he goes to boot camp. I think partially because he is so much older than most of the kids who are going. Almost all of the future soldiers in his crew are 18 and he's almost 28. However that gives him a different drive to be better and more dedicated. He's already been promoted twice and he's the top of his "class". He has run PT on numerous occasions and helps out the kid who are struggling. I'm so proud to be Private Severson's wife even if I'm not totally sure about this adventure.

Makayla Christine

My newest baby girl!

My Soldier

4 months and 1 week

Soon my hubs will be leaving to go to boot camp and AIT for 16-18 weeks. Soon not only my heart but my 2 year olds heart will be broken. Soon I will have to hear my daughter cry for her dadddy when he's not home at bedtime for their bedtime snuggles. Soon I will have to explain to her that daddy won't be home for a while and the only way she can see him is on the videos we made before he left. Soon it will be just me taking care of her sister and her. Soon I'm going to be sleeping in our big bed all alone. Soon our record of talking, texting, or emailing every day since the day we met will be broken and I will have to wait days/weeks to hear from him at all. Soon... soon sucks!