Merry Christmas

It's Christmas time and I should feel as warm and happy as I usually feel during this time. However, I'm not because I know as soon as the holiday season is over it will be mere days before he leaves. Charlie keeps telling me how different Eric will be when he gets back, followed by a chuckle. That chuckle makes me want to shove my fist down his throat and twist his stomach in knots because that is what he's doing to me! Does he not get that I'm nervous? What if he changes and I'm not what he wants/needs anymore?! How would he like it if I said with a chuckle that Amanda was leaving for 16 weeks and would change completely hahaha?! Huh!? Makes you feel good, right? Oh wait, no! Shocking!!! Thank you dear brother in law for making me feel comforted! That's all Merry Christmas, Happy New Year! Hooah!!